包まれた毛布を手繰りたどり着く今日はあなたの冷たい右手
I roll my hand
in the blanket wrapping you
finally reaching
your right hand,
so cold today
葛城の神降り立ちて饒舌のついでに来年の話をする
the owl god, Katsuragi
flies down
and in his chatting
includes talk
of his plans for next year
次の吐く息からしようかすかなる君の寝息に合わす沈黙
with my next exhalation
I will try
to synchronize
my own, to your faint breathing –
in silence
下京にぬっと生えたる京都タワーよそ者になる我のみ見ゆる
in Shimogyō
Kyoto tower
suddenly sprouts –
a sight visible only to me
who will become a stranger
使用語彙も昭和の君が激おこと笑って流す存在の不安
you, who speak daily
in the Shōwa vernacular
utter an ‘OMG,’
then laugh it off,
anxious over your existence
僕なんかなくてもやっていけるでしょという言葉で笑いあっても
“you would probably
be all right without me,”
I say,
and we laugh together—
and yet …
間合いを切るばいばいをした 振り向けど君は梅田へ二秒で 消える
picking a good chance
we said ‘bye bye’—
though I turn around
you are disappearing
in two seconds, towards Umeda
さみしさに無限はないといつか知る誰かと分かつあなたへの恋
someday I’ll realise
there is no unlimitedness
in loneliness –
I have to share with someone
my love for you
多摩川の岸辺が見える 世帯持つつもりもなくて鴨川ゆかし
the banks of the Tama river
come into view—
how elegant the Kamo river,
where I have no intention
of maintaining a household
(Note: The Tama river is in Tokyo, while the Kamo river in Kyoto.)
閉鎖さるる雪の東京撃たれしは郷愁の我郷捨つる我
Tokyo is now
in lock-down with snow—
the one who was shot
is that same homesick
‘I’ who has abandoned his hometown
何者もなれずに終わる。四年目でちょっと期待した。まあいいけ れど。
I’ve ended up
achieving nothing.
in the fourth year
I had a few expectations.
it doesn’t matter …
